Growing up I often let fear stop me from doing what I wanted to do. I worried about what people would think, what would happen to me, how would I survive. I grew to understand that healing fear was paramount to leading an authentic and successful life. It is still something I wrestle with.
At the beginning of this year (soon after my updated Shamanic Astrology reading) I discovered that my Moon, Sun and Mercury were all going to be squared to Saturn From January of this year until the year 2013. My first thought was, “Great, I am not leaving my room for the next couple of years.” I was already having trouble with depression and my fear grew that this was going to be a very difficult time. Healing my fears around this became imperative.
Saturn’s shadow aspect is discovering what is and is not working in your life. Oh boy, I had a lot of things that weren’t working in my life. Relationships, life Purpose, home environment. I decided I could let this drag me down and feel overwhelmed and fearful or I could do something.
The first thing that came to mind was staying in the present to prevent the fear and overwhelm from taking over. I told myself to focus on the present moment and what I could do right now. I began organizing my house.
I trance danced in my living room as a moving meditation to gain insight for my writing.
I began seriously looking at my relationships.
Each time I went into a fearful place I would take a long deep breath and ask, “What can I do right now in this moment?” And whatever popped in my head I would take action on. That is when I began working on this blogsite.
The more I listened to my inner guidance the more energy I had, the more creative I became, and the more positive I felt about the future.
Sometimes it isn’t easy to stay on track. Sometimes I begin to lose my way again and find myself slipping back into sleep walking through my life. Sometimes I use TV and food to numb myself out. But then I remind myself that isn’t what I want. I want to live an authentic life living my life’s purpose.
Fear can be a killer of dreams if you don’t have a system to use when fears pop up. I know that I have let it stop me from creating all that is meant to be created through me. I keep pushing through though and refuse to let it paralize me completely. Learning to let go of fear is important to staying present to accomplish my dreams.
I remind myself that Mother Father God Creator of All Life doesn’t make mistakes, that I am perfect in my imperfection.
What fears are you letting stop you from living your life’s purpose? What do you do to clear issues as they come up for you? How do you move back into a balanced state of being?
Other posts on writing and poetry fears:
- Writing Prompts – Are You Letting Fear Stop Your Words?
- Writer’s Block – Pushing Past the Fear
- Writing Fears – When Writers Stop Writing
- Fear – Why Do We Let It Stop Us?
Morgan Dragonwillow: Writing rebel, stress relief explorer, recovering perfectionist, cooking as therapy, poet & author that (mostly) doesn’t let her fears get in the way of her passion for writing and creating. She is team leader at @StoryDam, creatrix of #OctPoWriMo, She lives in Marietta, Ga. with her loving and patient partner, their dog that thinks she’s a princess, and the cat that reminds her that she isn’t.Find her on Google+